Nova Daily - 7 April 2025

Hi!

Normally I try to keep most personal matters out of my blog, but here it has relevance. Today was exactly awful. It already started yesterday evening right before I went to bed. A friend that I had met online during the pandemic shot me a message that boils down to "I'm in a relationship, and my partner doesn't feel comfortable with me talking to you." Because I might have been seen as a potential love-rival, four years of good friendship went down the drain last night, and today I've been in a constant state of heartbreak that can accurately be described as mourning.

It already hurts to lose friends, and it hurts in an entirely different way to lose friends due to the ego of someone who doesn't even know me. I can't do anything about it except for accepting what has happened.

Time doesn't wait for anyone. People come and go. There are more high-quality people in the world. And something like this isn't unique. You can say many wholesome one-liners and truisms about this situation, but please don't. Feed them to the embers. Because it hurts. No matter what you say.

The last thing I could bear to send across the void is this: "Even if I'll never speak to you again, I'll still be rooting for you. Take good care!" And I left it at that.

The game

The game was about as awful as I felt. I took a pawn somewhere in the opening, but this was a very dangerous pawn to collect. My opponent obtained a massive lead in development for it, and I was unable to deal with the many threats.

My thoughts:

Simply a bad game. I'm curious to see if there was still salvation somewhere, but first I'd need to look at the opening phase in more detail. I'll be doing so later.