Where was I..?

     I'm sure not a lot of people will see this, but for the people who did click on this notif, thanks! Probably you guys have wondered where I've been these past few weeks (maybe even months I don't even know anymore).

     Sorry for my inactivity. I'm going to be straight up honest with you; chess.com started to feel like a job. A job I loved, yes, but still a job. I began to feel like I was obligated to come online every day. Like I didn't have a choice. For a brief period of time, this site became like a prison for me in the terms of inviting people to clubs and such... and then something changed.

     For the worse. I'm not naming what happened, because I don't want to stir up drama. But long story short, I spent a long time sulking. At least, it felt like a long time. I'm not trying to appear like a saint or something. I took it out on people I loved both irl and online, and I'm pretty sure I made more than a few people upset. Sorry. Thankfully, there were also people who decided to stay with me, and I am more thankful than I can put into words for that.

     I don't want to come to chess.com and be met with work I have to do, stuff I have to fix, fights that I have to resolve. I just want to play chess and talk with my friends.

     So, from this point on, I hereby resign from all of my posts as Coordinator, Admin, and Super Admin in my respective clubs. You may let me keep the rank if you wish, but remember that I will not do most of the jobs that the position requires. Of course, I will still try to meditate on disagreements and other things I can't put aside for later. Concerning my club, AAC; yes I will still remain the owner. I can't step away from that.

     One more thing before I publish this... I love you all. If you ever feel hopeless or useless or anything of the sort, remember that there are people who love you and care about you. Please try your best to get through your days because it causes people the utmost grief if you do decide that you are better off dead in a ditch somewhere. I'm here for you, and so are a lot of others. Don't spend your life trying to impress someone or live up to someone else's standards. Do what YOU feel is best for you. Again, if my message didn't go through, love you all <3

Sincerely,

Vesper