i am done with chess

Take solace in the fact that your rating is higher than the vast majority of players on this site. You can't be that bad. Yeah ok you may not be exceptional, there's no shame in that. I used to run every day for years and at one point was very good at it, no matter how hard I trained though I could never match usain bolt, nowhere near! The point I'm trying to make is if you aspire to become a chess GM fair play to you, but if you fail don't let it get you down because you're ineptitude is shared by almost everyone you will ever meet. It's still fun to try though, so keep dreaming and keep your head up.

Do you play chess to become a GM?
Do you play games to become an esports champion?
Do you play football to win the Super Bowl?
You do not need to be exceptional at a hobby to enjoy it. I enjoy reading books, but reading books won't help me get an internship, or get a promotion at work, or get a decent job. I read because I like to read.
If you don't like to play chess because you don't find it fun anymore, that's fine, but if you don't like to play chess because you can't be a top 0.001% player, you may want to rethink your motives.

I'm glad I was famous enough for you to remember