I hate chess now.


If you hate chess, step away. Maybe you'll get the itch for it again. If not, there are a lot of other things out there.

I'mma play yugioh, maybe i need a little break, I step away from this game for 3 months and I end up forgetting everything again.
OP's prolly been happy for the last two years...
He's moved on to "I hate ___ now".
If you hate chess, step away. Maybe you'll get the itch for it again. If not, there are a lot of other things out there.
When you see you've lost a knight
And give up without a fight
Step away baby step away
And if you got caught in a checkmate
And you don't know what to say
Step away baby step away
Don't step on me
I don't want you to hurt me that way
- check-a-go

People often start hating chess because it's the moment they realize what they thought was a game is actually a job.

Used to love to play chess, win or lose, but since Ive come back to the game and really tried to get better (aka. all of chess.com features + outside reading) I have started to lose the love i used to have for the game. Through all of the study, I seem to have gotten worse at it. Any tips that might help before I walk away from the game for good?

Used to love to play chess, win or lose, but since Ive come back to the game and really tried to get better (aka. all of chess.com features + outside reading) I have started to lose the love i used to have for the game. Through all of the study, I seem to have gotten worse at it. Any tips that might help before I walk away from the game for good?
Whatever material you're studying, it's the wrong material. In your case, I see two immediate problems.
1) Your time controls are way too fast; You don't have enough time to think about your moves. Stop playing 3-minute games. Stop playing 10-minute games. I'd recommend at least a 20-minute time control, minimum.
2) You're still dropping pieces. You need to learn the most basic tactic of counting (as described by Dan Heisman). By the "counting tactic", I mean that for any considered capture (either offensive or defensive), you have to determine if the capture is safe. (It has to do with the number of attacking pieces versus the number of defending pieces, but it can even get more complicated than that.) I used to waste time posting a link to Dan's lesson on the counting tactic, but nobody paid attention to it. If you're really serious about learning it, you'll find the link.