I had no idea how intense this was doing to be


I feel that exact tension and pressure, just90enjoy the highs and lows. We all blunder, win games we thought were lost,

I only play 3 or 4 games a day, anything more than that is too draining mentally and emotionally haha. The exhale after a win is amazing... mix in some unrated games too

rated or unrated, tension against people is high. When you play bots, games are nice, predictable and you are squeezed slowly.
When you play people, everything becomes uncertain, pieces are flying everywhere board turns upside down.

The losses aren't what gets me going. It's the excitement of closing in for the kill combined with the worry that I'll blow it.
Do some yoga and deep breathing in between moves. Meditate before and after games. Calm your mind and relax.