Bobby and Me

There were a lot of things I felt I had in common with Bobby Fischer's eccentricities. I feel we both fight the same demons on and off the board. While I haven't killed myself yet, or plan to, I find release in drowning myself in alcohol and hopefully it kills me. it's why I chain smoke because lung cancer or a heart attack couldn't come sooner. My only regret is I haven't left any lasting impression on society. I have some good ideas for writing books though, and lately I've been easing my depression with an obsession for Stephen King. Back to Bobby Fischer I completely understand where he's coming from, and he was very fortunate to be good at something, not only good but the best in the world. I believe that his eccentricities are very close to my schizophrenia, but there is a depression that goes with that. So rather than say he was a brilliant prodigy, I would go so far to say he was a brilliant icon; someone to look up to. Someone who made a lasting imprint on society.

Normally when I get like this I self destruct, but today I'm feeling adventurous. I guess you could say I am wallowing in my own self pity, but more than that I have starred at the broad spectrum of reality. Bobby was never really special in that regard; against the odds. I am happy he made it. he spit in the eye of formality, and for that he is admired worldwide. A lowly Brooklyn kid who made an incredible achievement. Much the same as a lowly Salt Lake kid can dream of ever achieving. The most pure insight into the mind of Bobby is he wasn't seeking status, but instead he rallied against it. True to his beliefs, he never sold out in my opinion.

it helps me to get even more f'd up.

how many drugs does it take to kill a person?

By squashing?

never mind I said that. I'm going now to enjoy my buzz because this obviously is killing it.

When will you turn 64?

Ouch!

Paul Morphy?

no stopdrinking

I wanna get f'd up!

Bobby and I

Bobby and I went to the tiki lounge and had ourselves a few drinks. We later cruised over to Sunnyside and snorted a few lines of coke. Later on we took turns injecting each other with heroine.

I'm sorry, but this is Saturday.  You can only get Q'd up.

I want to get Q'd up and f'd up!

The biggest decision in life you'd ever have to make when coming into this world is - do I wanna stay in this world or not? If not the latter, then you best get busy living.

Too many, get a busy to slowly dying instead...waste away in loneliness and depression, they decide to lay their head on their pillow of drugs and alcohol...the love of their family and gf/bf don't seem to do them much good. My sis is in a relationship with a guy like that...a sinking ship, he is. And she's anchored to him.

Life is tough. Just ask the animals in the savanna.

That was my way of saying KEEP YOUR CHIN UP, Nekhemevich.