So are you saying you have a loathe-hate relationship with Chess 960?
You, I believe, are suggesting that you can excel within the constraints the rigged game of chess and patterns set up by those constraints, which you have learned. But if you have to think flexibly, in very fluid non-standard positions, you quickly encounter the limits of your rigid thinking. I'm sure that is frustrating. Then, is it better to excel at mediocrity or suffer defeats while striving for true mastery?
Bruce Lee, Kung Fu master and movie legend was very Taoist and fluid. He believed in learning the forms and rituals as a foundation, but then having the mastery and freedom to transcend them in real battle. So, in some ways, we might say that Bobby Fischer, inventor of Chess 960 was like Johnny Cash's famously immortalized song, A Boy Named Tzu
It's unbalanced, broken and pointless. After kissing the curb in my recent 960 games, I came to the conclusion that this variant should not be taken serioulsy and not even to be considered real Chess at all (like Omega Chess, e.g.). I have some ongoing 960 games but after I'll have my ass whooped in nearly all of them (as it appears to me), I'm done with it. I'm actually doing quite well in regular Chess and making some progress, so at least I can be sure that my opinion about Chess 960 is objective and not distorted by my hurt ego.
Anybody else felt the same disappointment about Chess 960 as I do right now?