Snatching defeat from the jaws of victory. You've got to see this game of mine.

Edit: Can this possibly be moved to game analysis? Sorry about that.

Not looking for feedback really. I know I screwed up. I just have to show this. Maybe someone will get a laugh out of it so my suffering won't be for naught.

Obviously, I was thinking he would play Rc1 with a skewer - I completely missed the most obvious move. Ironically, even had it gone according to plan his king still had the g3 square.

I knew I could possibly draw but didn't want it. By the time the game ended I felt I deserved to lose.

But do you know where you screwed up?

This is a good endgame study "piece".  My instincts say move 48. Rf4+ was the bad move, but I see 47. h4+ is also not as good.

What can we study to learn 47. kh6 or 47. kg6?

Why did you resign?

I felt I should've played one more quiet move before the pawn thrust 25...f3. Obviously the the last three moves of the game were bad.

And I knew it was drawn. I said so in my original post. Try to understand my reason for quitting - I was so disgusted and couldn't bring myself to play that board anymore. It was sickening to look at so I just gave up the game.

The BvR at the end may not be drawn since your King is in the wrong corner, but you may as well keep trying since most people wouldn't know how to win it anyways.

For some odd reason. I have had players playing this Bb5+  and e5 move against me as black. They really don't understand thats not good.

LOL I think I'm on defeated as black when they do that to me lol.I'm pretty sure I have close to a perfect score against that line.

I would go back as to move 38. It was clearly a mistake to give up the a-pawn for the h-pawn. First, you have pawns on both flanks, this means you would be stretching White's defensive forces. Secondly, Black's bishop controls the promotion square a1. Worst case, White grabs a pawn, but you will be able to exchange the last defender, the rook, leaving you with the completely winning endgame. This is even if White keeps for the time being the h-pawn. Sooner or later it will fall, you just have to make sure you keep a pawn on the g-file.

Then you have the Rg2-g4 moves... completely unnecessary. White's king was cut off on the first rank, why would you free it up?

I think 36...Bd4, protecting your passed pawn before capturing White's a-pawn, would have won much more easily.

I agree cavelorum. I knew about bishops controlling queening squares from my time studying chess but it never occured to me in that instance. I felt the overriding principle was to trade down material. I felt that the end result would still be completely winning. And it was. I just wasn't good enough to convert.

Had I to do it over again I would have done as you say.

Well I have not played this variation against the Sicilian as white. I'm just curious to why you picked this move order. Instead of like 2.b3

My goodness, the biggest blunder of all was resigning a drawn game.

Arguing, by Ajahn Brahm ... an Australian ...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1bSZL8edEiQ

If you want to make a progress, you must stop playing only for win or lose. I don't see a reason to be so disgusted that to resign in a draw. It's foolishness.

I played the opening correctly. I was shooting for the dragon sicilian but he left the book so I left it as well. My first few moves were either in line with the dragon or consistent with something that would have allowed me to later transpose into the dragon. It's a very noob friendly opening.

I am sorry I read the board wrong. I thought you was playing the white side lol. Which is why I was saying why did you play 2.Nf3 instead of 2.b3 lol.

However, Now I see what you mean lol. Yeah you was playing black side lol.

I like most of your moves from the black side except for the move 8...e5. It seemed to early to me to play that move. However, It was a nice game.

Thanks. You are probably right. I will spend a little time tonight looking at it.

Edit: Yes, I don't like 8...e5. I don't understand it and really don't know what I was thinking at the time.

Well I don't want you to lose any sleep over the move 8...e5 lol.

Maybe its just a matter of taste and personal touch.

I don't have any crushing analysis to say 8...e5 is a terrible move or anything lol. Maybe people might even like the move 8...e5.

My observation of the move is based more on an opinion in this case. An I'm not a super strong player so maybe its a wrong opinion.

I'm just observing below position.

I look at the position and I come up with like 2 idea's in this position.

One idea is to maybe castle queen side. White has 2 bishops that might aim down on your king + queen that can zip across pretty fast + Open E file which could help with rook lifts etc. It makes castling kingside seem rather scary.

It just seems to me like maybe 8...Qc7 might be interesting move. With idea of like b6 maybe Bb7 with queen side castling just to get away from the aim of the bishops pointing at you.

Second idea I have is to try and fortify the kingside some more. The idea I have with this is like 8...Nf6 or 8...g6.

The idea I have here is to try and goat white into giving me double F pawns. I would love if he take my knight so I can retake with my E pawn to have double F pawns.

The reason why is becuase it would get rid of 1 of his powerful bishops + It would give me open E file to contest his E file control + all his dark squares would be weak + my king would have alot more pawn support.

I would also than try to put my remaining pawns on light squares to crowd on his Light square bishop remaining.

These are just idea's though probably not even that great. I don't know. It just seems like interesting idea's to me.

Thanks for the analysis. I agree with you.