I have looked at a few of your games. You start out OK and seem to know what you are doing, then at some point you make horrendous blunders and oversights.
I think you may have some form of mental retardation in which you seem to be of normal intelligence in day to day dealings, but in chess you are some kind of moron.
You need to find another hobby. You will never be anything but a putz in chess.
I work with a literal retard from time to time and even retards can play a somewhat reasonable game. I was black here: