Art in sadness

Is there any art in sadness, if so what is there. Can being sad from stress, anxiety, and self hate actually bring out anything good in yourself. How do you transform your pain into art.....please i need to come out of this. Anyone understand

You need LOTS of help.

What i need is inspiration. I have been runninging on 4 hours of sleep for the past four days, i wake up at 6 and work/school until past midnight. I am in choas, and i need to stay awake. What else would you look for besides some form of salvation in your own misery. I dont have people to help me i have never had many shoulders to rely on its just..here....trying to use this emotional choas and turn it into something beautiful. 

Please dont judge what you dont understand

You should really go to a psychiatrist.

Plenty of artists do just this. What that conversion looks like varies for each person, though.

You can also right songs, it's another form of art.

If you write songs you should tell me them and I will make them into music! Lol

My only form of art that i am capable of is chess, i am not an artist I live in the world of technicalities and certainties my mind is overwhelmed. Engineering is destroying my hobbies and my inspirations. I love it dont get me wrong....but the schooling...the pointless drag day in and day out.....im soooo tired of working so hard for nothing. I come to this site to find some piece and realse my mind but....then im beat....again and again....my performance drops....my blunders get worse.....and soon im just playing trash.  Im tired of feeling like trash, i need to find reason in this art, its the only thing i have to escape the insane workload they make us work for. 

Its quite funny, i pay my institution in tuition so they can teach me, but instead they tell me i'm not doing well enough, not working hard enough, not putting enough hours in. I spend nearly 24/7 of my waking day working on this degree. Not becuase i like homework but becuase i love what it means to be an engineer.....but only my peers seem to see me. The team i lead in my club and a handful of others who struggle with me. Everyone else just walks by and doesnt care.

The professors dont care, the college doesnt care, and they expect me to care. 

All I want is some peace, i have three mettings and 4 homework assignments i have to finish tonight. And all i want to do is play chess.....I NEED to escape my mind.....i need help gaining that potential, harnessing that tiredness, and using my mind in something productive other than hating myself for working hard at chess for nothing.

None of you have yet to understand me, where is the one who does, who actually understands my situation. 

ok, well you made posts about eating plastic -___-

Nothing inspiration about some fake girls fake tears, for all of you who insist on insulting me over helping me I wish you only the deepest darkest of hells in your next downs of life. I ask for inspiration from those who understand, not to be made a mockery of.

There will always be those trashy people on the internet whos only existence is to troll. You cowards don't understand a damn thing about meaning in life. You can get bent if you honestly think your opinion matters to me. 

I resent all of you people who don't ever get overencombered by stress, never had to pull all nighters to work for something, and have never been frustrated by lack of ability. 

Its so good to see the chess community doesn't care about itself. Keep your stupid egos, and your fake intelligence. I'll just keep waiting for someone whos real to help me in my path.

None of you cowards understand darkness

If you want to do art, just do it. You don't have to know anything or for it to be a masterpiece. Just get creative. Chess can be good for escapism and slow chess is good to ground your mind, but don't expect anything deep from it.

As for the other stuff, none of us can talk you through them here. Seeing a psychiatrist is a good idea and not mocking.