I am here. I am TecDragoman

Hey my friends, 

Maximilian here. You may know me as TecDragoman, this guy who has been here in the community for pretty long and who got banned a few weeks ago. Well, I'm back. And even though the fight for it was really hard, I'm able to be here again. I especially thank Miona, Matija, Laura and Nadeen and everyone else from the support team who built my path back here. 

But first things first, I also want to apologize to all of you. I mean, thank you Sader and all the others fighting at my side, but I've actually lied to you. I didn't get banned for no reason. As you may know, I was using an opening database which I created with some online courses. I didn't know it was wrong though. And because of exactly that, I tried to start a rebellion against the system of chess.com. Well, actually I'm still against them in some ways, for example them closing a lot of forums with critical feedback or closing my alt account I've made after arrangement with the staff two years ago just because some people created fake accounts. They've banned it without further research, the same thing that also happened to a lot of other friends. I just drop the names Blaze, Renov and Yosef here. If you know their story, you know what I mean. 

However, all of this crap with the fight against the injustices is another story which I will tell somewhen else. You surely want to know how I've been over the time, and if you don't want to, just skip to the next paragraph. Where should I start… I've missed you all. Everyone of you. I turned away from everything I like, except for chess since I'm pretty addicted to it. I actually wouldn't have survived without it. I mentally broke down at the latest every second day, and I've actually attempted- I'm not able to tell, but you know what I mean. Wow, how will the speech to text tool write that? If you're wondering though, I've made this whole text with a speech-to-text tool, so that you can maybe hear and feel me through this digital wall which tears us apart and connects us at the same time with everything. The only thing you can't hear here is probably that I'm f***ing crying the sh*t out of me right now. Oops, I think I have to censor that manually when I'm posting this. Back to topic again. Where was I? Oh yeah, the S-word which is killing me from the inside... I don't want to go. I just need a break. A break from everything. I mean, either I take a break or I’m the one breaking. I think I'm going numb. 

Talking about my chess career, I think I've actually improved a bit. I haven't lost a single important game OTB, increased my Lichess ratings with a few hundreds on every time control except Hyperbullet, I don't play that, beat my trainers a few times, learned some opening lines for black, for example against the English and got much better in recognizing tactics. And hey, one hint: Playing chess while being about to break down is the best gamble in the world. You either play like the last piece of sh*t or that great that Magnus would want to be adopted by you 

Enough with this crap though. Over the next time I will answer some questions you have to me, contact the people I've missed the most and set up a completely new bio. So, if you want something from me I'm of course there. But let's just conclude all of this with the main thing: I'm back, still alive and starting again. From Zero. 

Greetings, 

Maximilian Ohmer, aka TecDragoman 

Yay

cool but who fartef

You need to rise

welcome back i respect the way you went out