So I've been playing chess for maybe 1-2 hours everyday for the past 8/9 months (this account is new). I've obviously been improving but I never feel good enough, by that I mean that I feel like I should be better than I am. Chess is complicated, and there are a lot of aspects which make up a good chess player of course, but losing to a 750 rated player feels sort of bad after all this time. I'm a person who wants to win, sometimes NEEDS to win, to be better. I'm aware of this. This mindset comes with a lot of preasure, and chess is easily the game that preasures me the most. Stupid mistakes, and when I lose I feel stupid and I feel like my brain isn't working. I like chess, but at the same time I hate it. I really don't think a person like myself is able to healthily play chess, but I'm addited. I've maybe played 1200 games only on chess.com, solved houndreds of puzzles at 1500+ rating, watched houndreds of hours of chess content and put in what I consider a substancial amount of time into the game. It obviously doesn't come easy, maybe I'm not fit to play the game or something. If you're wondering why I'm not using my standard account on chess.com it's because I deleted it out of impulse, yeah, it's getting to me. Should I take a break? This might be hard to answer, but nonetheless I still felt like venting.
If you write to support@chess.com, they can reopen your other account.
Thanks but I don't mind losing it really.
So I've been playing chess for maybe 1-2 hours everyday for the past 8/9 months (this account is new). I've obviously been improving but I never feel good enough, by that I mean that I feel like I should be better than I am. Chess is complicated, and there are a lot of aspects which make up a good chess player of course, but losing to a 750 rated player feels sort of bad after all this time. I'm a person who wants to win, sometimes NEEDS to win, to be better. I'm aware of this. This mindset comes with a lot of preasure, and chess is easily the game that preasures me the most. Stupid mistakes, and when I lose I feel stupid and I feel like my brain isn't working. I like chess, but at the same time I hate it. I really don't think a person like myself is able to healthily play chess, but I'm addited. I've maybe played 1200 games only on chess.com, solved houndreds of puzzles at 1500+ rating, watched houndreds of hours of chess content and put in what I consider a substancial amount of time into the game. It obviously doesn't come easy, maybe I'm not fit to play the game or something. If you're wondering why I'm not using my standard account on chess.com it's because I deleted it out of impulse, yeah, it's getting to me. Should I take a break? This might be hard to answer, but nonetheless I still felt like venting.
If you write to support@chess.com, they can reopen your other account.